What Happened when I Became Sober

Repost from a previous blog, written by Morgan Kelsey on January 21, 2017.

Still sober, so grateful.

On the morning of November 8th, 2016, I awoke. In a big way. The signs were all there, everything was aligned, and I was ready to change. I didn't want to feel this way anymore. I was done. I shed a few tears and I moved forward. 

I became sober, and suddenly my whole world cracked open. A tremendous shift occurred. My life became filled with purpose. 

I became focused and intent on pursuing my dreams, the things I always thought about doing, filing them away for "later". Turns out, the time is NOW. Because if not now, when?

It is as if the universe is suddenly hearing me more clearly. My thoughts are truly creating my reality.

I became sober seven weeks before the new year. January 1st felt like a giant blank canvas, and I had plans to create a beautiful world on that canvas. 

No longer stuck in a cycle of over indulgence and regret, I began to see clearly and with new eyes. I began to feel with my true core, no longer muddied with the emotional outbursts that imbibing would produce.

I committed to my yoga practice and to bellydance, assuring I set aside the time to attend class. These classes have helped me to grow tremendously, and in so many ways. I can't imagine life without them. There's such a beautiful freedom to both. Feeling and knowing my strength. 

I committed to volunteering, and to creating intuitive art classes that I will be teaching. The urge to pass along knowledge and to have a positive effect on someone's life is overwhelming to me right now. I am listening with open ears and an open heart to my higher calling.

I committed to strengthening and growing my spirituality. To continue deeper study outwardly, and inwardly to search the hidden crevices of my soul for revelations.   

I committed to living fully in each moment. To having a clarity that just doesn't exist with alcohol.

The universe has an amazing way of aligning itself to make awesome things happen. At the same time I was looking to promote and grow my business, The Brewer's Wife, I had also been thinking about how I'd like to write more, making plans begin this blog, and maybe even write a book at some point. I set up a meeting with a local magazine about listing and featuring my business. What happened at that meeting blew me away. I walked out of there with a job as a writer and event planner! 

Now almost three months sober, I don't dwell in the past. I look forward, toward a very promising and bright future. All the possibilies lie before me. The blank canvas is becoming very colorful. I see movement when I gaze at it. I hear whispers of encouragement. I stand in my power. 

Who am I, right now? I am a mother, wife, friend, priestess, writer, event coordinator, artist, dancer, yogi, small business owner, creator of natural skincare products, herbalist, reiki practitioner, witchy woman, healer. I am passionate, intelligent, curious, determined, kind, brave, and beautiful. And I love myself, "THIS MUCH", as my bellydance instructor has us say, arms wide, looking into the mirror. I am the creator of my life. 

The decision to change brings forth an exhilarating journey. There is no shroud, nothing to hide behind. Just me, living authentically. And I am grateful.